We had to be out of here at 5.30ish this morning to drive Phill to Junee. Not so much ice on the car thankfully but a lot of fog to drive through. My solo drive home was so pretty as the sun rose over the farmlands, I love that drive in the early morning, it somehow restored my spirit today and helped me gather the strength to face the day.
My view this morning!
Still battling the hormones and a bit of depression which is connected to the hormone thing as it isn't my usual MO.
Got home and put yet another load of washing on and hopefully I'll get it dried outside today after all the rain.
I made a batch of dough yesterday intending to make rolls for burgers but Phill got home early and we decided to make a green chicken curry and fried rice. So not sure what to do with the dough, I might just make rolls anyway or do something more creative with it. Have gravy beef out to make the filling for meat pies for dinner, good weather for it too.
Emily finally got her way and coloured her hair red yesterday. Managed to sweet talk Daddy into buying the hair dye. Their bathroom looks like a massacre happened but that's okay. I actually quite like it but I prefer her blonde as it suits her colouring. I can see her changing and slowly coming out of the pit she seems to have dug herself.
I was thinking about other girls I know of who went through similar things at the age she did, and who ended up out on the street and in all sorts of danger for several years before finding their way back and making something of their lives. At least Emily is doing it all under our roof, safe and as protected as she can be. That is a positive. She is still talking about going back to school next year but I doubt that is the answer for her. The senior years of high school aren't easy and if her heart and mind aren't in it it's pretty pointless. If that is what she does it may be a good thing though, give her something to begin again with while she matures a bit and figures out what she really wants to do. It is becoming clear to us though that we may need to leave here and move to a bigger town so that both kids can have more opportunities. I would still like to go back to Western Australia, apart from our elderly parents, who we don't see often anyway and can keep in touch with by phone, internet etc there is nothing to keep us in the eastern states now. It's all up to Josh though, and while I know he is as settled in school here as he can be, it's not the best school in the world. We shall see.
I have a full day of work in the house today which is how I like it, too much time on my hands is not good for me.
2 comments:
Dang! What energy you have Trish abd that fog you drove through would be a nightmare to me.
I feel like a slouch. Cooking hasn't interested me in a long time. No kids to feed anymore. Maybe it will again for the right man. ;0) Love your spirit m/f.
(((hugs)))Pat
Its so hard trying to figure out what is the best and consider all family members...both our girls have told me they hated Port Macquarie...and I know why...we felt it too...it was like there was a miasma over it and if you stood outside the norm it was so hard for you...but if you never took a stand you thought it was paradise... for our girls the good thing was that we understood...i know its a different issue for you these day - how times have changed? I just hope for you that in 10 years time you look back here and just sigh in the knowledge that Emma Josh and all your children are well and happy... and you are too and that's what really matters
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