New Year's Eve and I'm Alone

I should have seen it coming though.  When I spoke to my mother in law a couple of weeks ago she told me how sad she was about the New Year.  She and Phill's two oldest sisters, one of whom died in October, used to always sit up and watch the fireworks on tv together.  This year she will  have neither with her as the other sister went to Adelaide to visit her married son there and took her younger son with her as well.  I felt so sorry for her.  Now these people have shit on me for years and years, I could fill a book with some of the crap they've pulled on me.  I keep trying though for Phill's sake and for the kids.  I decided we'd go down there for New Year even though I would have rather gone up to Sydney to see my own family.  I booked the hotel room yesterday, the only one left in town I think and packed the suitcase as much as I could.  He got home from work in the early hours and I'd had a bad night so I slept a little longer, like till 7.45am.  As always, when we go somewhere it has to be NOW.  He wants us out the door and on the road asap.  Check in isn't even until 2pm and it's only a two and a half hour drive, and he got pissed off that I was taking my time getting ready etc.  We've had issues about this before.  He got nasty and I stood my ground.  I DON'T EVEN LIKE HIS FUCKING FAMILY.  In the end he and the kids took off without me.  I am beyond angry with him.  He got on the phone to his mother and made out I was just being a bitch.  I organised the whole thing!  That was the end, the last straw.  I've tried to be part of that family but they're just a bunch of bloody hillbillies who think the sun shines out of their arses. 
So here I am all alone, the kids didn't even say goodbye to me, but Josh must have got upset and Phill brought him back and he didn't want to leave me here alone, bless him.  I acted strong and told him to go and have a good time and I'll be fine, I needed some time to myself etc etc, so he was upset but he went.
I'm just gutted.  I made such a nice Christmas for everyone and they go and do this.  Emily is a chip off the old block, so much like the Percys, it's all about them and everyone else can fall into line behind them.  I'm big on saying goodbye, what if something happened to one of us and we hadn't parted on good terms?
The sad thing is I know how it will go.  Phill will sit around at his parents' place talking about the weather ad nauseum while the kids cool their heels thinking of the hotel pool.
He even had a crack at me about previous visits down there when I would take the kids back to the motel so he could spend time with his family without them whining and wanting to leave.  He made out it was that I didn't want to spend time with them.
It's kind of a relief.  I will never interact with his family again.  To overhear his snooty little great niece, (who got up to speak at her grandmother's funeral and only talked about herself) say how awful it was that the good people were taken and the bad ones were left behind, and then looked pointedly at me, was pretty low.  If they only knew how Phill was behind closed doors........but he puts on the face for everyone else but us. 
Whatever I am, at least I don't pretend to be something else.
I talked to my sister and she is still down at Mum's and Mum is driving her crazy so I felt better.   At least I'm home here alone and can do what I want and enjoy seeing in the New Year.  Wouldn't be the first time I've been by myself on December 31st.
Now I've vented I'll go and put on some music and make spaghetti sauce the way I like it.  Just hope the kids have a good time.
Happy New Year to everyone, in spite of all this I have high hopes for 2012, for myself and for my kids and my grandchildren.  Phill can go fuck himself. ;)