It took me a good two full years to get over him when we parted, and I didn't date anyone seriously for another two when I met Phill and we got married. There is no chance we can ever be together again, I know that. But I'm glad he is back in my life and I just hope we can convince Kate to give him a chance. I understand her reasons for not wanting to, I really do, but I also worry that if she doesn't take this chance she might regret it one day. Matt is eight years younger than me, and was a very good looking young man (he still is!) and a lot of people assumed that was why I was with him. But we had a strong connection that I have never really felt with anyone else, and I don't think he has either. I've had a few tears today thinking of what might have been, and remembering the good times, although there were lots of bad as well, but why dwell on those?
Matt hasn't changed much either, just a bit less hair on his head. I can see Katy in him.
Dramas with the kids but I can't even be bothered writing about them.
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Those feeling of "what might have been" are normal.
Waves of "wishful thinking" wash over me quite often.
Yep...if only!!!
(((hugs)))
you always want something you can't have.
Its hard when you feel like that - Fortunate are those who end up knowing that the one they are with is the one god intended - but everything happens for a reason I guess... and in the long run as Ella Wheeler Wilcox wrote over a century ago "Whatever is is best" its a poem - That doesn't mean you should not strive for happiness ... sometimes familiarity makes it that we see each others faults too much - and it is the dream of that perfect love which pulls at us ...its a hard one - Whatever Is - Is Best
by Ella Wheeler Wilcox
I know as my life grows older
And mine eyes have clearer sight --
That under each rank wrong, somewhere
There lies the root of Right;
That each sorrow has its purpose,
By the sorrowing oft unguessed,
But as sure as the sun brings morning,
Whatever is - is best.
I know that each sinful action,
As sure as the night brings shade,
Is somewhere, some time punished,
Tho' the hour be long delayed.
I know that the soul is aided
Sometimes by the heart's unrest,
And to grow means often to suffer --
But whatever is - is best.
I know there are no errors,
In the great Eternal plan,
And all things work together
For the final good of man.
And I know when my soul speeds onward
In its grand Eternal quest,
I shall say as I look back earthward,
Whatever is - is best.
Source:
Poems of Ella Wheeler Wilcox
Copyright 1910
W.P. Nimmo, Hay, and Mitchell, Edinburgh
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