First Day of Spring At Last!

And yet....but I won't complain about the minus celcius temperatures.  Time is my friend.  In more ways than one.
Going to cut a very long and boring story short.  Got the car fixed, almost bought an iPad got a new fridge instead, finally got a clock/radio/iPhone dock for my bedside, Josh did well in his maths test, Em is vowing to return to school in 2013, my fourth great nephew is due at any minute, he's going to be a little Virgo like our Kate (God help his parents!!)
My marriage is self destroying but nothing new there, WHY can't they just be perfect like we women are?
I am smiling a lot at my friend Pat's new life.  I had a really nice chat with another blogger friend tonight who inspires me and has given me some food for thought.  That would be Natalie.
My MIL wants to send me a fucking scarf.  ????  Perhaps she is hoping Phill will manage to get it around my neck and......oh let's not go there.
Last night the kids and I watched the full moon rise up over the railway lines across the road.  Amazing.  The sky was all pink and it was so pretty.
Tomorrow is Fathers' Day.  For the first time ever, I have let the kids take the lead.  They've done fuck all.  He is going to work at sparrowfart and will presumably be home at about lunchtime.  I do feel a bit bad, but he isn't MY father.  Mothers' Day for me this year was spoiled by their teenage selfishness and he had chosen to be down in Victoria and didn't want us going down there. 

Okay wrote that last night but fell asleep.  I sit here at 3.30am in my warm bed in my warm house and know it's about 3 below outside and feel thankful.  I need to feel a lot more thankful for things in my life and also need to reach out to positive people to inspire me and spur me on to DO something with my life.  Once we get this second car and I have my own wheels again  there are several things I can do and commit to.  I just have this feeling that great things are around the corner for me, I just have to trust and believe, both in myself, and in the universe.  There have been so many times in the past couple of years when I've felt hopeless and that there wasn't any point in carrying on and even trying but I feel like that cycle is ending, and that I do have some power and control in my life.  I am a good person, I have a kind and generous heart and a lot to offer the world and it's time I got back into it again. 
I talked to my Katy last night, she'll be 23 in a week, where did that time go?  There is nothing I can do right now about our physical distance but I am determined, and I told her so, to work on and keep up our relationship.  I love and treasure her so much.  She expressed concerns that she is working so much and feels a distance from her friends.  I told her this is a crucial time in her career and not the time to pull back, and if her friends truly care about her they will understand.  There are little things we can do to keep the fires of friendship burning even if we don't have the time we would like to spend with them.  Ah I wish I could get on a plane and just go to her and spend a couple of days, but my young ones need me here at the moment.  Phone calls will just have to do for Kate and me, for now anyway.
I do feel bad for Phill, he really has made an effort to be a better father this past year.  I noticed he bought (very expensive) piece of roasting lamb and some vegies yesterday so I will find out exactly when he will be home and make sure there is a nice dinner waiting for him.  I couldn't help myself late last night and made a comment to the kids that it was Fathers Day today and a while after that I heard some rumblings in Em's room so hopefully they have made him something to mark the occasion.  If they are so inclined I will give them some money and they can walk down the street and get him some bits and pieces.  It's up to them.
And I think I might think a bit about my own dad too, and tell the kids some stories about their grandfather.  He was a funny bugger sometimes.  I am only five years away from the age he was when he died, that feels weird.  And he will turn 90 on the 11th of next month, can't imagine him as an old, old man.  Wonder what he's up to, he's with his parents and all his siblings that's for sure, bet they're having a great time in the afterlife.

We got a new baby this morning!  My sister's oldest boy, my first nephew, and his wife had their baby boy at 5.15am today, Fathers' Day, little Lachlan Patrick.  His grandfather, my gorgeous brother in law was born on Mothers' Day.