Shiny Saturday

It's a beautiful morning here, perfect Spring weather lately.  The rainwater tank however is almost empty so I hope we get some rain soon.

Phill has had his laptop on the dining table for weeks, he's forever downloading some stupid loud movie which happens when he's at work, and when he's home he just sits there staring at the screen.  That's pretty much all he does except for eating.  A lot.

I had a terrible night on Thursday, night sweats then chills all night and then these ridiculous anxiety attacks.  I dropped Josh at school and came home to try to get some more sleep but gave up and started cleaning the house.  He fucking sat there at his computer, just staring, and watched me lug two  heavy baskets of washing out to the line without any offer of help.  I can't get out the backdoor because he's always sitting there, I have to go out the laundry door. 

We can't eat at the table without the drama of clearing all his shit off it.  I was always a stickler for eating dinner as a family at the table but I'm ashamed to say that lately we tend to all go our separate ways at dinner time.

Yesterday I'd had enough and calmly said to him that it wasn't fair that his stuff was always on the table and also that there were things that need doing in the house that aren't getting done because he just sits there.  That is why we all have our own laptops, they are LAPtops.  He mumbled something like  "I can do whatever I want".  I said "yes and you do without a thought for anyone else, we all have to live here together.  And there are things that need doing outside that aren't getting done."  He packed his stuff up and huffed outside eventually and did a whole afternoon's work in the yard while I did the house, I folded the washing and put it away, there were four baskets of it that I had been neglecting.  He got a beer out just after midday and by the evening had that smartarse, smarmy look he gets on his face when he is drunk.  We were sitting out the back and he made some nasty comment and I just got up and came inside.  We ordered pizza, they insist on ordering way too much, I can have two or three slices and I'm full.  He polished off probably one and a half large pizzas.  He really is turning into a fat, lazy, greedy pig.  I bought a bbq chook the other day, Josh had some and I had a bit on a sandwich for lunch.  That night I realised I'd run out of tinned food for the cat and thought I'd give her some chicken for a treat, she LOVES fresh chicken.  It was gone, all of it, not a trace of it left, he'd eaten the lot.  He is getting fatter and fatter and is a heart attack or stroke waiting to happen.

Okay that was my whinge.  He's going to work at midday today thank Christ.

I am really enjoying the kids.  Emily is just blossoming now she's out of school.  She said to me yesterday that she had forgotten how it felt to be happy.  Josh started his exams and said he thinks he's done really well.  He's growing into a lovely young man, I can see him changing by the day. 

I spoke to the police yesterday and she asked me what we wanted to do about the assault charges.  I realise there isn't much we can do about the one that happened on my birthday but the one at school had many witnesses and we could get a conviction there if we went to court but I really don't want to do that.  We've had enough of police and courts, I told her we really just want them to leave Emily alone and could she just talk to them and maybe put a scare into them and let them know if it happens again, anything, we will take action next time. 

Our homework for group this week was to choose something to do out of a list.  I chose mastering a new skill, or at least beginning to.  It had to be something doable that would give us a sense of achievement.  I have chosen teaching myself how to resize my photos.  I know it sounds easy, but with this new camera I can't email pictures as they are huge.  Blogger does it for us but emailing is another story so I am going to find myself a programme and teach myself how to use it today.

I'm making pork balls for dinner, we'll have that with noodles and an Asian salad.  So I'd better go unload/load the dishwasher and have a shower so I get down the road to get supplies before he takes the car.

I'm also going to sit outside and finish my online course and work on my book a bit this afternoon.

We have tiny little tomatoes on our one tomato plant and a tiny strawberry in the hanging pot out under the pergola.  I should get some other vegie seedlings, might do that today too.