Yes I'm always honest in my blog, and here we go again. Em jacked up again this morning and refused to go to school. Said she had a headache/cold whatever. Was fine the whole weekend. I may have overreacted but I am ultra sensitive about this given her history. I implored her to just go, she refused and then came the abuse. I'm a horrible mother, all of my children hate me, I never listen to her, favour Joshua, I don't care about her, send me to a foster home (I wish), let me ring the police to tell them you are abusing me etc etc etc. Heard it all before. I don't know what was happening on Monday at school to want her to get out of it but I told her if she started this caper again, ie not wanting to go to school, that all bets are off. No mentoring (she relies on me to drive her up there), no more support, no anything basically. All that is really required of her is to go to school. That's it.
Other mothers I ask you. Is it me? I feel like I bend over backwards to support her and help her, to love her and take care of her, where the f*ck am I going wrong with this kid? She seems to get all the attention, all the support, all the help just because she acts out. I feel like poor Josh is left behind and left out at times.
And then!!! Get this. Phill comes back from collecting the car from Junee (he luckily missed the Emily drama as usual) and tells me "You can't just discard her like you did your other kids". WHAT??? He wasn't there, I didn't "discard" them, he has no clue. This is the man who spends 90% of his time working and the rest when he's home sitting on the f*cking computer ignoring all of us. He does very little with his kids. Nothing really. Katy told me she left home partly because of his treatment of her. Grrrrrrrr etc, just letting off steam. My day will come.
3 comments:
(((Hugs))) Hey you are not doing anything wrong, you are doing the best that you can do and that is all that any of us can do. You know for some people that may never be enough, so what can we do?
Every child is so very different. Some are way more difficult than others. I had a very strong willed one too, she grew up okay. Her father was quiet strict with her though, which was great as I am such a softy, she would have walked all over me if she could. She still tries sometimes but as she is a grown up now I refuse to put up with it.
You know what? I think that being a good mum is why she is comfortable enough with giving you all this shit. She just wants to push all your buttons lovely! You don't have to put up with it at all. Put her in her place (and then don't forget to give her a hug and tell her you love her!) she will be all grown up before you know it.
I know, I know yes I know. You are right as always K.
Thank you.
Gawd struth! Some husband's should learn to think before they speak...because we women have notoriously long memories and I am sure he will hear about this statement in 10 years time - and deservedly so...
Em well, hopefully she will grow out of it and realise that at her age she doesn't know it all but she may bein her thirties before this happens and you will be a wee old lady then...but it will happen I promise :)
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